Being stupid ..

Yes, totally stupid. Why didn't I book it right away? Why did I bother myself about extra costs? Why did I wait to see if someone else was coming?

Sometimes we need something big happening to learn hard lessons, I have hard lessons from time to time, sometimes more often that I would like but life also comes with clumsy periods anyway. The last one came yesterday, when I lost a 170 eur return ticket to New York. Yes, it was a great and unique offer and I missed it :(

I had found it on sunday night; it was imposible, completely beyond my imagination .. and yet it was there. My first thought was "yes" but then, maybe also because of the influence of being in Murcia I started considering whether it would be sensible to just book the flight "in situ", go to such a big city on my own or even worry about travel costs and entrace tickets once I got there. So I made a very stupid mistake: I decided to think over it for a while (offer was until tuesday) and see if someone else was gonna join. A grave mistake. I must confess, that had I learned from this offer here I wouldn't not have give it much thinking. I get very annoyed with myself with the way my "circle" or environment or however we wanna call it affects me sometimes, and even more annoyed of those strange doubts I have sometimes. Life is short, I'm working and I should have as much fun as possible, especially now that I know I'll be a full time student again soon.

So the offer ended before the web said, I missed my flight :((( I could have jumped out of a plane withouth parachute for being so enormously stupid. Yet offers happen again and maybe this is a lesson I had needed. This lesson was about stupid doubts and doubts making you stupid, and how we forget sometimes that some opportunities have to be taken without considering and how life is way too short to miss them. Meanwhile, I'll keep looking for that offer again :(